For those of us who have not acknowledged the date for the past couple weeks, it is time we look alive. Classes may be done, deadlines over, but New Year’s is fast approaching. For some, 2019 has been a whirlwind of ups and downs. There were moments where we never thought we would make it to see 2020. There are also moments where we wish the year would never end. A few of us are leaving some extremely important people behind in 2019, and some of us are looking forward to welcoming new blessings in 2020. Whether we think the year was a bust or not, one thing is for certain, 2020 is just days away. With a new year, comes new goals and commitments. Last year, I made a promise to myself to make it a “selfish” 2019. I can proudly say I did just that.
My 2019 year consisted of breaking myself down and truly learning who I was in the core. I worked on building myself up, finding value in myself, and setting goals for the betterment of my life. I thought of others, but before I put myself in debt, I thought back on the emotional stress it might have on me.
It was the year of a lot of lasts for me. My last All American at NAIA Track and Field Nationals, last year living in Nebraska, and my last time being part of a team. It was also a lot of firsts for me. My first time being an Aunt, first time graduating from college, and my first time finally connecting with my Native tribe. In between such glory and guts, I also experienced great loss. I lost a close friend of mine to suicide, had to give up a few friendships, and had to suck it up and move 28 hours away to obtain a higher education.
All in all, I would say that 2019 was an okay year for me. I have become more comfortable in myself, speaking light and positivity in my daily activities. Spending time to myself has become a treat rather than a punishment. The theme for 2019 has been, self-care and soul care. With ending on such a positive note I want to keep pushing the self-care and soul care theme but add to it as well.
For 2020, not only are we focused on self-care and soul care, but we are working on pouring unto others. P.O.U.R. is an acronym for Provide, Offer, Uplift, and Rebuild. Provide for yourself, make sure you are taken care of emotionally and physically. While providing for yourself, make sure you also keeping the possibility open to provide for others. Knowing your own situation, you are better able to assess your flexibility and capability of helping others.
Offer up what you’ve been blessed with. If you have been given time, strength, and the capacity to help others, offer it up in a time of need. Offer what you are good at, your talents and experiences. But also offer up the skills you need to work on. Develop them to be your strengths. Uplift, your voice and opinions, grow your mind, and invest in your education. Uplift your peers, friends, and colleagues; give them constructive criticism while also putting yourself in their shoes.
Rebuild relationships. We are not required to make room for people in our lives, but for the sake of sanity and closure, rebuilding or coming to terms with relationships is important. Rebuild your own self-confidence and build up your own worth. Rebuild your goals, level out your responsibility, and make time for growth.
Next year is your year; speak it into existence. The rest of your life will be the best of your life. Whatever you choose to do in 2020, make sure it is in the best interest for yourself. Self-care, soul care, and anything extra, pour unto others. Happy New Years!